Making a U-Turn on the Point of Research | 18 Syaaban 1437H
May 25, 2016
I had a discussion with my supervisor yesterday. Honestly I was quite down yesterday but at least I know what should I focus more on now. It's quite devastating when you've finished writing your thesis just to find your research contribution is not strong enough and needed to read further on something else.
But despite having to work a bit more, I know my supervisor advise did clicked and answered my question all a along which is always floating with uncertainty in my mind and heart. I have been working as an engineer but never did I found myself as a good system integrator. Indeed from the project my HOD assigned me to develop has made me competent in developing a system hence becoming a good engineer.
What I am now experiencing is the bridge between industry and academia gap. It is true that all this while is the algorithm that I need to dig deep. As usual I just did what is needed to complete my task previously. It turns out the academia point of view is to discuss the process on how I design the algorithm. To be honest, it's actually a mess.
What I need to do now are basically 4 things:
1) Research on past work of obtaining serial number during Init Session
2) Refine my algorithm on the ESN extraction and data manupulation
3) Comparing the responds time for IoT using multiple internet enabled devices
4) Comparing IoT tools used for Home Automation
At least I'm clear of what I need to do. The thing on how to do it is also clear but the thing that worries me the most is my ability to do it because currently I'm having doubts.
Writing My Way to Graduation? | 26 Rejab 1437H
May 03, 2016
I've done my Seminar Presentation on April 18, 2016 and succeeded to defend my Research Proposal. The lecturer asked me to submit my thesis by this month. I think I could make it. Suddenly he asked me to do 3 papers. 2 journal papers and 1 review paper. I only managed to do 1 journal paper last week and asked him to review it.
I've also remembered him telling me to upload my thesis to a website to check for plagiarism and I have not received full information on this as well. I'm somewhat worried. Plus what bothers me these days are more to global issues as well with my head was filled with conspiracy theory saying the USD will crash on May 28,2016. World War 3 will start on 6 June 2016. Plenty of Illuminati planned related incident. But it leaves me somewhat in between. Neither denying or sure.
Plus on FEMA Camps and all. The only reason I watched all this was to curb my anxiety on finishing my postgraduate studies but it turns out these actions feeds my anxiety even more. But there was a lecture from Nouman Ali Khan saying not to allow our chest to be tighten by people's wrongdoing/misbehaviour which is literally stated in the Quran. I'm even too lazy to go search the video I shared on Facebook. I'll go search now, I do not want to misbehave.
I'm now watching the video which I've posted. It's about not to feel overwhelmed, not to feel constricted by the schemes that they do. They in this case are bad people plotting something bad. In this era what I worry about is the NWO as it affects everything in our life which I believe will be in the near future. The advice was given in Surah Al-Nahl (The Bee) and Surah Al-Naml (The Ant). Allah asked us to not be sad by the things that they plot. So I'll carry on my daily life to somehow give more to the society as it increase myself in patience and everything that is good.
I further my studies because I want to have more time to myself. It turns out being postgraduate is absolutely harder than being an engineer for me. It is not because I have to do both at a go. It is just because knowledge is light and I find my heart and mind wants to be enlighten but obvious there's to much grease in the heart currently.
So I am fighting my way to find the true way. Obviously I will stumble and fll as I am not perfect but I know Allah is giving me plenty of opportunity to be good and finally successfull. Allah is increasing me in patience. So I will definitely be patient with myself. This has always been my life struggle which is being patient with your own self. I will find a way sooner or later and I place my hope and trust in You my Rabb. I've always believe in every struggle there's an enormous reward in the end. Because your living your life because of your Rabb and there's no other reason but to only submit to Allah and only Allah alone.
I need to read/listen to Surah Al-Kahfi (The Cave) often to be safe from all harm of this world to come. Anyway, still need to finish 2 papers and a finalized thesis. I will try my best to finish up within this week by 08/05/2016. In sha Allah. Full thesis will be submitted on 12/05/2016. There's a way because Allah helped me through the Seminar/Project Defense. In sha Allah I'll make it through.
Thesis : The Post Mortem | 2 Rejab 1437H
April 09, 2016
I am currently suffering from exhaustion and my body is refusing to sleep. If I try to sleep, my head will be aching and I prefer to have panda eyes instead. Honestly, I excel at the very last moment as I find myself usually a last minute person. However, I've learnt a lot from being a postgraduate research candidate but I am taking a holistic approach to this problem.
I've always used English as a medium for me to write. Maybe this is what happens when you are raised in the UK in your early development stage of 4-6 years old. I will try to improve writing in Malay continuously as I find people speaking Malay fluently as someone who stands with the nation.
Apart from that, I've sent my thesis around 2 a.m. yesterday. I was quite devastated to find the data I've saved are redundant and corrupted. But, I think I will go to the office tomorrow before Subuh prayers most probably at 4.30am to take the data and do my presentation slides. If I really am lucky, I will write a journal to be published.
Let's reflect a bit. I possibly am a last minute person and I think it's very frustrating as my early preparation accounts to almost nothing. But, I see the thing that helped me the most is having previous documents which is written by a colleague did help me finish my work. I know being consistent is the key to being successful but a du'aa for being istiqomah is a must as human are flawed by feeling weak.
Consistent = Istiqomah in Arabic. I can see myself istiqomah in doing sunnah prayers as Allah has made it easy for me. He made it easy for me as I can certainly manage to pray 15 sunnah prayers a day. Allah taught me to stick with that routine even at my laziest condition. It is just a miracle that turns into a habit.
Another thing Allah taught me was on memorizing ayah from Al-Quran. I started of with Al-Baqarah as I want to memorize from cover to cover. So I want to memorize one ayah per day. As in secondary school, I am obliged to memorize ayah 1-5 of Al-Baqarah. Yes, I've already memorize them. Now I have memorize ayah 6-11 of Al-Baqarah. I think my performance is poor as I started this process from 4 Jamadil Akhir 1437H. Now it's 2 Rejab, and at least I should've memorized 20 ayah. What made me slow down? My Master Degree endeavour? Maybe...
But even Allah made Rasullullah slow down and do it step by step. Everything in life needs discipline and most of all is Allah's blessings in everything you do. By the way, Mawadah and her children are my current roommates. I'm quite hounoured as she trusted me with her children. Actually Mawadah is a cat with little kitties. Three of them. We currently have 9 cats at home. It seems my mum wanted to give them away to a shelter except for 2 cats which are Rayyan and Asma' Reena. My sister have asthma and she cannot stand them and as their population increases every 3 months, this can leave the home with quite a mess. I am actually disheartened with their decision but even I can't figure out a better solution. Technically, I treat them like humans but they always bother me when I am doing my work. However, they are the coolness of my eyes in this world.
I have intention to convert my MPhil to PhD and I know currently it is sucking away my youth but I am now okay with it. But the downside is my family does not understand how hard it is to do a thesis. I still help out here and there but thesis does consume your time of leisure and sleep. I don't want to be like Banu Israel where they have books and smart but their heart are not enlightened by the light of knowledge.
I wish to be spiritually and mentally lifted by knowledge. Previously it was all related to a 'Dr.' title. Now is more to proving yourself worthy instead of to people. I made a decision to fly to Japan on 15 May- 20 May 2016 for the sake taking time off from my work, my family and to rediscover myself. I've always prayed for one particular in my tahajjud but I know it's impossible because Allah have set it since the beginning of days or azali. As the du'aa is almost impossible in my view, I du'aa and made a promise to buy myself kafan clothes if the du'aa is not fulfilled when my age turns 29 in Hijri. This is certainly because, I need to carry on with life and kafan clothes reminds me of what is certain. The certainty of dying. Everyone will definitely die and I am preparing myself for it.
Let's go back to the thesis. I sincerely want to convert to PhD and I will try to be consistent. I can only make du'aa that Allah will guide along the way. If it is not written in Lauh Mahfudz, it was never my destiny but written only as an intention. I don't plan on getting married anyway. So, let's struggle with gaining access to knowledge shall we.
P/s: I find myself as a socially awkward person these days like I conversing thing which are not as fun and people can easily take advantage of me somehow. Need to try to find myself again.
Pp/s: The ones in the picture are my matured classmates from UHAP6013 class. The front row are KDN officers and a beautiful lawyer at the front. Also in the front row is my lecturer Dr. Mazlan and Mr. Bala which is my classmate and the chairman of the trip.
From Devastation to Choosing Someone to Pick You Up | 7 Rabi'ul Akhir 1437H
January 17, 2016
I sent my Extended Abstract/Conference Paper yesterday. I would never be possible if Allah didn't wrote in Lauh Mahfudz to meet a goof friend of mine last Friday. I did not have any confidence in me to complete my paper let alone my Masters Thesis.
I picked her up from her work place and I was definitely down but I faked a smile a little. I was at the edge of depression due to a Masters Project. It started off with me not feeling good enough to finish up up my Postgraduate work. She was a good advisor as she taught me the fundamentals of research. She pittied me on my supervisor on giving instructions and did not guide me through this process. But I'm glad she did not dissed my supervisor but gave me suggestions on having a co-supervisor or contact her lecturer which previously we met in Perth.
She taught me the is to know which Research Area that I'm keen to do. She gave an example of Internet of Things (IoT) being the Research Area and Web Services as the Scope. She also mentioned it is important to define our target and contribution. As she is from an IT background, she will have different opinions than what people from Engineering people will have in mind.
I actually cried a little because I think I'm desperate to get guidance instead of instruction. I define myself as an executer which usually all engineers have this trait. Design/do something you have been instructed by your boss/client. She also shared a table on comparing other people's research than ours. I think I got the best out of that conversation as it is like a senior talking to a junior giving good advices. The best thing is, her opinion is not one sided. Not sided to me or herself nor the supervisor.
Now I know why I should meet with Masters/Ex-Masters/Ph.D candidates or the ones who have graduated when I'm doing my postgraduate studies because it is terribly painful to walk through this postgraduate study alone. So here is a tribute post to Siti Zarinah Mohd Yusof. Thanks Kak, you surely lead me out of frustration by advising me to take it slowly and steadily with all the good advices above.
It's really nice to have such conversation about knowledge itself. It helps you to enlighten your heart. While you have other things you need to do concurrently, you know that you'll never give up searching for light.
Furthering My Studies for the Sake of Allah | 19 Safar 1437H
December 01, 2015
I've just sent in my mock seminar presentation as my lecturer requested it. He wanted me to send iton 28 November 2015 but I was out of the country. Then, he asked me to send earlier. I rejected him with the worst manner due to his negative reply and he tried to use his veto power. I've already mentioned that I want to send the email today as I have returned from Perth yesterday. I've also included my work plan, software specification, software progress (including an android application and a link to the website for the project) via email.
The thing about people is when they have power (including me), they will try to get the best out of the resource that they have. Human resources are different and not easy to manage I believe. It's better to mind your words and let go of things that hurts you for the better when such things occur. Previously, the reason I further my studies is because of the task my boss assigned me was quite hard and should be converted to a Masters Project.
I don't know how but Allah answered my prayer by getting me enrolled into UTM then converting my coursework study into research. From part time into full time. This all happens with a reason. When you pray for something, but indeed Allah grants you with something better when you remain patient throughout the process.
Coping up was previously hard for me with all stuff that I need to juggle which now I divided into 4 main things through this website. Ya Rahman, thank you for making this website a reality because I'm definitely a thinker and indeed I need to write things down for the better. Knowledge is definitely light and I have to get rid of all the impurities to attain it. Ya Rahim, thank you for making my path this way. I'm starting to enjoy it more although it's getting very challenging day by day.
I've created the website and as mentioned, my masters project overlaps with my work. The link will be in the Engineer | MRT Corp.
Defining a Research Project | 30 Muharram 1437H
November 11, 2015
After attending Research Methodology class in UTM Skudai, I'm actually refreshed yet scared that my research could be narrowed down and be focused. But a helicopter view is very necessary to let me evaluate if it relates with other projects in the real world. At first I just wanted to design an Electronic Access Control (EAC) Security System with Remote Command from Android Device. The EAC platform will be based on Raspberry Pi Platform.
Research is justifying the problem which you need to solve. So why do this project? My boss asked me to do this project to enhance my skills then I thought of turning it into a Masters Project would push me further to complete it quickly. I surely missed the fundamentals of a research. I was thinking like a typical engineer which only create products without knowing it's purpose.
So I came out with a problem statement where break ins are increasingly happening in residential areas. As homestays are now popular as well, this method can actually help homestay owners to not have to bring the keys each time any occupant(s) want to rent out the place. A Touch N Go card or our IC can be the key and with the card management system online, residential home and home stay owners (hereafter will be deemed as administrtor) can easily add the serial number of the card into the database. The one whoms rents the place out just need a Touch N Go card to access the door as it is then registered to the system.
It's much faster, safer and less hassle. With remote command from an android device, administrator can monitor the door status. Whether it is open, closed, in panic mode or etc. Don't you just love technology? I do. I really, really, really, really, really like you dear technology. Just that I need to keep my mind focused because it tends to wander.
Glance of My Past | 27 Muharram 1437H
November 08, 2015
Briefly, I started to go to kindergarten at the age of 4 in the Hampshire School, Knightsbridge Under School, London. My primary education at Batu Road Girls School (1), Kuala Lumpur starts at the age 7 but I notice when I am 10, the subjects do not seem that easy anymore but it was fine. I've been using MS Power Point at the age of 11 because of a school competition and wanted to be Software Developer at 12. I think the movie "Antitrust" affected my decision.
My secondary education was in Tunku Kurshiah College, and I still participated in MS Power Point competition at 14. I've participated in a internal design competition and external project management competition at 16, and made advancement by building a website at 17. I graduated with BEng (Hons) in Computer and Communication Systems in Faculty of Engineering, UPM Serdang and became an Engineer for Sony EMCS R&D Centre KL Tec at 23 then later joined Mass Rapid Transit Corporation (MRT Corp) Sdn. Bhd at 25.
Later then, proceeds to do MPhil in Electrical Engineering in UTM KL because of a side project my boss assigned me to design. So what the hey... I'm still an educatee. I'll be one for life, I presume. The entry below and its following will mostly be related to my postgraduate studies.